There are so many things one could write in blogs. About your life, what's happening around you, about things you like and don't like, you are inspired by. This last week of our previous year was a week to let me think. I fell and hit my knee so hard i couldn't walk normally, and then i got a cold, so here i am, sitting behind the computer writing words, instead of doing this a bit differently-by composing music about it (which i'm going to do as soon as i write this down-sometimes words help you to write better-although i have still loads of things to learn).

Well, sadly, after this hectic year i had the only thing i can think of is- I HATE MEN. Or not, i don't hate man, because loads of them are allright and really good friends of mine, i just hate man in an aspect of them as being your second half. You know-true love and all. But, shouldn't true love wait for you and not jump near you in one moment and away from you in another? I don't know. I guess after all these years i don't believe in me finding it ever. And that's what i hate. Maybe it's good for the others, but it looks like it's not meant to be for all of us. I believe it happend to you guys as well, but ... At least i hope this pain will help me understand music in some deeper depths of human soul.

Right ... they say every experience is good for something. I have to say i'm lucky to have a family as mine, friends as i have and life as i have at the moment. So, i'm not allowed to complain about anythings else. I should appreciate what i have and what God has given me. And thank Him for all of that. But still, it hurts.

And all these things made me think what i once promised i would do and what i loved ... Maybe it's meant to be like this and i should take a slightly different path. Mysterious are the paths of the Lord ... Let's see where they bring us.



... and i still got a tea-so everything's gonna be allright :)